“I just don’t really see what’s so great about life? everyone says that you have to keep fighting and just stay alive, but for what? everything just hurts so fucking much and nothing good ever happens, I don’t see what there is to fight for?”
i have lost all creativity and motivation. i’ve lost my drive and the will to endure. im tired and lifeless while still existing. i avoid all thoughts of the future. i eat in small portions. smiling is a habit but i never mean it. i think people are watching me. i sleep so i can escape myself. i cant trust people. i relive the same day over and over. i never know what to say.
